After a series interviews and preparations, the zero offer result becomes unacceptable at first, but finally it’s a known fact and reasonable outcome to me. The time spent on textbooks, blogs, companies’ research is very valuable which makes me more self-identified, clearer on the career path (which means the pure engineer path is definitely not fit for me).

The patience and attitude of never giving up are two things I learned along the way. The relationship ends, the effort put on interviews with no result never bother me any more, as long as I keep growing up and on the fast way of becoming maturer. I am thinking about trying out more positions later in my life: data scientist, product manager, consultant… It’s really existing that the goal, the dream to think big and be successful lead me a long way. When I try to recall my life in campus: middle school is studying hard for no independent thinking, college life is suffering from the boring theoretical staff and do not dare to try something different, graduate life in Stanford provides more freedom and trying to make more excellent friends and learn more useful and interesting staffs. However, the lack of independent thinking and weak background on communication/physical/language keep me growing with a lot of pain and gradually can not even enjoy the life and the happiness around me. Finally, the time I joined Oracle which is supposed to be a rather relaxed environment makes me think more about myself and get rid of previous shackles around me.

English learning requires a long process, although I have already sensed my great improvement over the time especially the reading and listening part, the level is still far from my expectation in mind to chat or communicate fluently at work. But no worry, I am still young and I am trying to go with the following rules to improve my english skills even faster (but it does not mean I have no patience on this…):

1. sing along as many as english songs as possible to practice spoken english. Here singing is both a hobby and an advantage myself
2. read more on english, watch more videos/shows on english, listen to more podcasts on english
3. talk more during the work. No as a QA engineer, less time is spent on communication, but I still need to spend longer time with indian colleagues(like Varun) to gain more idea about their life/culture and improve my spoken english at the same time. If in future, data scientist/product manager becomes my next carrer, there will be more opportunities then.
4. Keep updating blogs like this in English in this personal website more often to practice English writing.
5. Vocabulary can also be learned through daily words learning/reciting through Shanbei
6. Think in English more and let’s hang out with my dear friends: Lino, Vinod and Sup!

In the near future, I tried to make each blog more structured and I know it’s kind of in a mess of different things currently. I will do the change!

Action seems to follow feeling, but really action and feeling go together; and by regulating the action, which is under the more direct control of the will, we can indirectly regulate the feeling, which is not.

Currently, from the sections of book I read, in order to influence people and win more friends:

1. Stop criticizing people’s fault, not only this way will hurt people and keep you from going inside the person, but it’s also not as effective as we expected them to be, since people will always choose their own way to defend for themselves.
2. Start praising people’s strength and advantages sincerely since all people would like to be considered as important and valuable to some extent, everyone cares about themselves most because of human nature.
3. Think from other people’s viewpoint, not focus on your own benefits or things all the time. You can do a win-win thing by thinking in others’ side, to fulfill others’ need and then your own purpose will be achieved and you will also be liked. Not ‘I, I, I… all the time.
4. Become interested in other people or other things first before letting other people become interested in you.
5. A sincerely smile worth a million. Even a fake smile on purpose can change your inner feeling which can seldom be modified in a direct way by will. However, fake smile can be identified easily, so truly cultivate interests on the surrounding things and then generate a sincerely smile towards others which can bring more friends and wealth finally.

The several other methods to win friends and influence people from the book are to be continued…

From <How to win friends and influence people> by Dale Carnegie.

It’s a blog just created by me two days ago, however, so many bad and unexpected things happened these days making my first few blogs full of resentment. It’s not meant to be like that, hopefully, the blog will be filled with more joy and happiness some time soon.

Last night, my girlfriend came to visit me, making my broken heart yesterday a little better.I am still not in a good mood to do anything about work or interview, so worrying and regretting the wrong decisions I made back in Stanford. The reject letter from Linkedin finally came to me, the snapchat data science interview is not a little like what I expected before. A rather senior woman who has a computer science phd degree before asks me all the rather hard coding questions, no matter sql or algorithm questions. I should admit that my mind was in a mess during the interview and also really not born to be a coder like more other people in silicon valley. I do not think I have not put enough effort into this field, but just not enough passion to stick into it in future.

Really upset and disappointed about the whole interview process, I am so confident that I can at least find a decent place to work as a data scientist with some much improvement compared to the time back in campus and so much effort I made in pursuing the data related works. The true fact may be that there are more talented and more diligent people waiting for the opportunities there also.

Be humble, be foolish. Nothing makes my day during the last whole month, but I am sure the brighter days will come soon.

Go fighting.

就在刚刚, uber的hr约我五点半connect， 直到六点半才给我打电话（一万个草泥马奔过），一心欢喜的等待着一个半月苦战以来的第一个offer， 没想到听到的确实hr貌似安慰的话， 说什么data intuition很好， 但是相关经验少， a/b testing不是很fit他们的expectation。
就在下午一点， 收到了hr的邮件说找时间约我connect。 当时点开邮件是以thank you开头的， 本有一种悲剧的感觉， 但邮件正文中丝毫没有提到offer有没有， 于是好奇的问有经验的好友是什么意思， 好友恭喜我说电话是offer， 邮件才是拒信， 突然间莫名的窃喜涌上心头。于是乎， 一下午也没有正经工作， 都在忙着看有offer怎么跟hr argue， RSU和option的区别， 在想到底uber前景怎么样。
在两天前， 我上午在家边应付着老板工作上的事， 边准备下午的onsite面试。 下午两点准时到， 公司系统down了， 于是被电话请上去的。第一次印度面试官， 边打着哈气边面试我， 结束了还笑着问我公司的revenue不是metric吗， 我回答说司机的更重要， 有了司机才能有uber的未来（maybe无人车是未来）。 第二个面试官问的是我喜欢的modeling， 题目也是之前做过的exercise， 但是就在我每道题就认为回答上来并我认为还不错的时候， 他一直一脸不屑疲倦地说着每一句话。第三个是女面试官， 从头到尾一直是以culture fit的角度在面，但对我本人或者我说的东西似乎并不感兴趣， 当然自己在回答的过程中也没能够引领话题， 经常拐到了自己不熟悉的领域上（10 billion for building cash system for uber？）。 第四个面试官算是里面最nice的， 无论回答的对错 至少都是笑容相对， 并且是理解欣赏的态度。最后的小李子也终于show up， nice talking with you。尽管最后并没有像我想的那样， 但还是作为stanford校友你给予我了支持与欣赏， 谢谢！

自从加入oracle后就想跳槽了， 但后来发现做的东西还挺有意思， 新鲜感与舒适的生活驱使我安逸了很长时间， 也交了很多好朋友， 但心里始终有颗想做data的心， 时刻练习r modeling， 不想让自己忘了之前所学或被时代落下。写了很多代码， 看了很多article， 以至于到最近两个月各种准备面试从sql到stats到a/b testing到linear regression各种杂七杂八看了很多， 虽说面了多少跪了多少， 但从学知识 增长面试经验的角度还是收获颇丰的。

可能出来混迟早是要还的， 本科到研究生一直是考试至上， 学知识根本没有自己专研没有深刻理解，有时候就是为了成绩好而死记硬背，抄别人作业什么的更是数不胜数。由于本科数学系很理论，系里没有应用找实习，找工作的氛围，所以到现在resume自己看了都觉得很是单薄，可怜还有些公司能给我面试，我也很知足了。来湾区后，实习是第一个就给offer了，fulltime也是第一个就给offer了，不知道时好时坏。好的是省了很多力气找工作，而且工作也都不错，比较稳定， 不好的时同学们都在失败中积攒了很多经验，而且在一路过程中也通过准备面试夯实了基础。自己呢，混一天是一天，拿到了就自鸣得意地安逸了起来。现在的悲剧经历，各种问题在面试中的暴露可能真的是之前欠下的债。

人啊，还是要踏踏实实，脚踏实地。我始终相信付出会有收获，也在近一两年知道了自己的很多不足。被拒正常，幸运女神不偏袒我也无妨。希望自己越挫越勇，不断提高自己，到时候做一个selector 而不是现在的begger。

加油吧 人还是要有梦想的 现在还年轻 不怕失败！

从记录生活开始做起，从用于面对失败，敢于享受成功果实做起。

从克服拖延，客服完美主义做起。

相信未来的我一定会成为我努力拼搏后想成为的那种人。等着瞧吧！

Start from today March 1st, 2017, I will keep recording the life events around me by posting at least two blogs per week. I strongly believe: ” every little makes”.

After a while on wordpress settings, the personal website finally looks like a place prepared for some blogs. Recently I am really inundated by tons of materials for interview and annoying work coming from testing on various unfamiliar operating systems. Then it’s time to start going back to regular life which is supposed to be filled with exercise, reading, learning and enjoying time with people I love.

In 2017, not only exercise and reading should be kept on, writing and recording the beautiful in the whole world should also be a part of my life.

Let’s do it now!